Wippaaaaaa

Tunku Muhammad Firdaus bin Tunku Azim, awak comel ;))

I love you so much. Ppl might say “eh gila lah perempuan ni” “angau” “bukan boleh bawak kawin pun” … and more. Tapi mulut celaka dorang tu pun bukan boleh bawak ke mana. Bukan dorang yang rasa butterflies ni. Bukan dorang yang kenal awak. Dorang bukan kita. Pedulikan apa orang nak cakap. Pekakkan telinga. Iloveyou.

Kadang kandang saya cuba simpan sorang. Cuba untuk taknak bagitau orang apa yang saya fikir apa yang saya lalui. Tapi bila semua disimpan kat hati, lama lama dia jadi full. Nak tak nak, kena lepaskan jugak. Sebab tu lah saya cerita most of problems saya kat orang. Mungkin awak tak suka cara saya. Mungkin awak fikir saya attention seeker. Tapi itu diri saya. Saya tak kuat macam awak, boleh simpan semuanya sendiri. Saya perlu luahkan pada orang. Kalau tak nanti susah hati. Saya dah cuba untuk diam. Untuk tak bercakap. Tapi hati ni dah tak kuat. Maafkan saya kalau luahan hati saya ni buat awak marah.

I love him. Still. And forever will do.

There are a lot of things running in my mind rn. I need to let it go. I can’t keep it anymore. I wanna write it in blogger. But I don’t have any. I wanna share ot on twitter / facebook. But I think both accs are too public. So I choose to post it here, on tumblr. Nothing much. But I feel so down rn. I can’t even……. humph. Ima lazy bug now. I didn’t finish my homeworks. I lost my boyfriend. Idk where my friends are when I need them. Idk what’s happening. Life’s getting bored. I wanna try something new. I wanna be new. I wanna be good. I wanna be the best. I want my boyfriend back. I want my friends to be here with me whenever I needed. I want everything to be ok just like before.

Truth is.. I miss you. I can’t stand living my life liddis. I need you. I always need you to be here with me. I dumped you. I let you go. But that doesn’t mean I hate you or what. I just feel like I’m not good enough for you. I’ve lost my confidence. I realized something bad had happened between us few days before we broke up. We didn’t talk for so long. I knw you’re very disappointed w me. And I’m so sorry for that. But when you’re gone, I feel lost. Lost a shoulder to rely on, lost an ear to listen, lost an eye to look into, lost a mouth to talk with, I lost apart of me. I miss you. But I knw who am I. An ugly girl like me can never suits a good looking guy like you. Besides, you didn’t even fight for our relationship when I asked fr breakup. So maybe this is the best fr us. We’re not meant fr each other. Sad. But life must goes on.. Just so you know, I’m still loving you.